Broken Window

If you stop running and see,
Looking into my eyes clearly,
Behold the darkness in the shadows,
Through the pane of broken window,
The structure is dilapidated,
This existence is isolated,
But no damage is such,
That time won't mend much.

Darkness lingers in empty space,
It awaits salvation in this place,
It hides the broken me from you,
It longs to reveal all to you,
For you become that sunlight,
This darkness craved to imbibe,
Sunlight shines despite broken window,
Enlightens my soul, rid me of shadows.

Someday I might shine on you,
You might discover light in me too,
Someway you let me inside you,
I might take away your darkness too,
Somehow this rare feat come to pass,
You see beyond the cracked glass,
Unless you run and let it all go,
Leave me a solitary broken window.

Real Find

Her skin so clear,
Like morning air,
With tint of dawn,
To the perfection,
I tried to like,
But I could not like.

Her hair has such sheen,
Moonlit night they seem,
Fall down in tangles,
An immaculate ensemble,
I tried to like,
But I could not like.

Her eyes are stars,
Twinkle shines afar,
Hold me by a blink,
Melt me by a wink,
I tried to like,
But I could not like.

Her words are gold,
Like wisdom of old,
Spent well with care,
I get some to share,
I tried to like,
But I could not like.

This beautiful person,
This serendipity,
This sudden attraction,
Age old proclivity,
So I tried to like,
Why I could not like?

Simplicity at heart,
Compassion as an art,
Love in reciprocation,
Trust in inclination,
I tried to find,
But I could not find.

Because of You

Do you believe in soul mate?
I tell you they separate,
As if not all that is good,
Is meant to be as it should,
I made peace with the fact,
No love would ever last,
And I took this call,
Never to take this fall,
Just this was life's promise,
Live life of compromise,
But there you stormed in,
Broke my walls from within,
Seasoned system of belief,
Crumbled down without relief,
Swiftly the world changed,
A heart which was chained,
Broke free and took pace,
Towards more heartache,
This awareness of consequence,
Seemed trivial to relinquish,
Hope for more than mere existing,
Live more while I am still living,
This change is astounding,
This familiar  longing,
Till now was absconding,
Seems to be rebounding,
So this risk I will take,
Keep my heart at stake,
Reaching out for my due,
I will try to love you.

Socially Awkward Girl

Behind the walls of suspicions,

She hides all her bizarre notions,

Alone in the fight against the world,

Survives daily, this socially awkward girl.

Generous at times for reasons trifle,

Or being heartless for motives nonsensical,

Earns my ire but to no avail,

Such are the whims of socially awkward girl.

In life she seeks simplicity,

To exist free of complexity,

Though feels she might seem unemotional,

These fears trouble the mind of socially awkward girl.

She wants to be this other person,

Darling to all, unknown to none,

Still she is alone more than usual,

She never wished to be a socially awkward girl.

I am beyond wit to explain it,

Why her silence pulls at me,

Rendering our conversations spatial,

I talk my brain away to the socially awkward girl.

More and more her mysteries entice me,

I strive to demystify what is beyond her eyes,

Unseemly though, this desire is insatiable,

She never seemed to me a socially awkward girl. 

This Moment

In my personal ability,
I intend to seek out beauty,
Beyond supeficial contemplation,
That evokes an appreciation,
For existense of this anomaly,
Your beautiful eccentricity,
Your overwhelming confusion,
Yet baffling conviction,
Like you are sure of wrong or right,
But it brings me such delight,
To unriddle your black and white,
And present to you in form extricate,
Only to surrender at this relisation,
My logic can never change your perception,
As I share my willingness to concede,
You confess you too agreed,
Although not sure on what point,
Making it a debate of different kind,
And we go about it in cricles,
Till I spot that spark ephemeral,
A manifestation of true beauty,
Unique to this personality,
Since I can't define the stimulus,
This reaction stays ambiguous,
Followed by an undefined flair,
I can see beauty everywhere,
From blemish on your skin,
To Tangles of your hair,
From fears of a girl,
To a woman's dare,
I find this beauty in you,
And I agree with you too,
I recognise fate's intent,
Though it was never meant to last,
We both deserved this moment.

Unreal

An overwhelming sadness,
A lurching madness,
Can I really pick and choose,
I love you and I hate you.

What heart wants,
To make a small jaunt,
To get near you,
And get to cheer you.

But your moods whimsical,
Demand all nonsensical,
Which means much to you,
But I fail to see through.

Further stand-off it creates,
Which our ego aggravates,
Obvious choice to break or bend,
None is ready to make amend.

My selfish way,
Makes me say,
I apologise to you again,
Which I don't really mean.

As an honest man though,
I make you understand so,
This will happen twice,
I'll hurt you and make nice.

Take that for which you can pay,
Choose to stay or move away,
Anyway it won't matter in long run,
We are, but figment of my imagination.

Crowd

Today lets go back in the time,
When I couldn't blow it off in rhyme,
You people lingered around then too,
You people had me convinced too,
That there was this need of compliance,
That my awkward existence was an annoyance,
And of course benchmark was the crowd,
Of which I always chose to stay out,
Though back then I never knew,
What crowd translates to,
That it only symbolizes mediocrity,
Which in no way is part of me,
Today I understand your anger,
I refuse to mock your failure,
In your place, I would be angry too,
I've failed yes but not as much as you,
Because you keep pushing it in my face,
All that is wrong with human race,
Particularly your miserable existence,
Is end result of my nonchalance,
I know this is how you find solace,
Elevate your self by pointing my mistakes,
It angered me initially,
Now I only feel sorry,
You've been there once for me,
Living here is impossible lonely,
So I craved for your company,
Hoping an avid camaraderie,
I assumed I had your empathy,
I realise it was futile sympathy,
Stemmed subconsciously of your inferiority,
Life is little easy when you get to patronize me,
So this is my gift to you,
I don't mind If you feel good too,
At least I can give selflessly,
You even put price to amicability,
I smoke, drink and swear earnestly,
And I can admit this with honesty,
Upon which you choose to deject me
Hence I am sure that you secretly,
See this as a incapability,
To contemplate someone like me,
Can survive this drudge so happily,
Where you fail so comprehensively,
So you try to tell me otherwise,
See me under illusion or disguise,
It makes me sad for I see you a friend,
Prejudices have blinded you to excellence,
You tell me that I am no good,
Labelled by your cipher sisterhood,
Which entirely dwells on mediocrity,
While it is plagued by jealousy and self-pity,
So I forgive you whilst you judge me,
I won't be you just because you can't be me.